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i lay here and cry thinking of all the ways to die, and i wait for my brain to reply ''STOP!''

but it never comes

heart pounding like the beat of a drum

whole life lives with the best family, supported and loved, always wanted the best for me

but still i don want to be here

ooohohohohhh

don't want to be here

if it weren't for them i would be a deserter and give into my own self murder

walk down the stairs convincing myself how no one cares

hold the blade to my wrist -just one twist

I COULDN'T DO IT!

BUT I STILL CANT STAND THIS BULLSHIT!

remember the family that cares, yeah that's the problem just let me be to be the suicidal mess that i am destined to be,

yeah momma im sorry

fatha, i don't open up

it'll get better someday but i just see a half empty cup.