Verse 1:

To hold you not has been gut‑wrenching,

A love that burns but can’t reach your skin.

Pain and gain tangled in my chest,

Frustration and patience, my only friends.

I wish I could be colder,

Brittle, selfish, hardened inside.

But I feel you, I ache for you,

And I can’t turn this tide.

Pre-Chorus:

I want to scream with no throat,

To love without passion, without hope.

I know these are harsh things to wish,

But the weight of you won’t let me go.

Chorus

(Hook):

Hold you not, and I break inside,

Love and loss collide, I can’t hide.

I’m a healer who can’t touch, can’t stay,

Yet I pray for you every single day.

Verse 2:

I don’t know why we’re here, nothing is clear,

Your shadow lingers, always near.

I want indifference, to replace romance with reason,

But my heart is chained to every season.

Pre-Chorus:

I want to scream with no throat,

To love without passion, without hope.

I know these are harsh things to wish,

But the weight of you won’t let me go.

Chorus

(Hook):

Hold you not, and I break inside,

Love and loss collide, I can’t hide.

I’m a healer who can’t touch, can’t stay,

Yet I pray for you every single day.

Bridge:

If you ever fall, lose strength to fight,

Let me come and ease your night.

I can’t have you, but I care, it’s true,

Even broken, I’m here for you.

Chorus

(Hook, Repeat):

Hold you not, and I break inside,

Love and loss collide, I can’t hide.

I’m a healer who can’t touch, can’t stay,

Yet I pray for you every single day.Hold you not… yet love won’t release,

Pain mixed with gain, never peace.

I’m trapped in care, trapped in longing,

Hold you not, still my heart’s belonging.