(Verse 1)

I still remember StarMaker nights

Screen glow blue in the dead street light

Laughin’ too loud with headphones on

Thinking somehow those people were home

Every damn ping felt warm to me

Tiny hearts in a digital sea

Inside jokes and late night calls

Names in my phone like writing on walls

And maybe to some it sounds insane

To cry over voices and usernames

But when you’re there through every storm

Those strangers stop feeling distant anymore

I told ‘em things I could never say

Face to face in the light of day

And for a while I could finally breathe

Like maybe somebody understood me

(Pre-Chorus)

Then one day everything went black

No warning sirens, no turning back

No final message, no “see you soon”

Just silence filling up my room

(Chorus)

And I never got to say goodbye

Never got one last late night cry

Never got one last “you’ll be okay”

They disappeared and I couldn’t stay

Now every time the walls shake loose

I panic like I got something to lose

‘Cause I know what it feels like when worlds collapse

One second they’re there, the next just ash

So if I seem scared when rules get read

It’s ‘cause I still hear ghosts in my head

Begging the universe, “Please don’t decide

To take my people before goodbye…”

(Verse 2)

Then came another app, another place

Different usernames, familiar faces

I swore this time I’d keep my guard

Not get attached, not fall too hard

Yeah right.

That lasted maybe a week or two

Before their laughter stitched me through

Every crack I tried to hide

Every night I barely survived

They called me funny, chaotic, loud

Made me feel seen inside the crowd

And slowly I forgot the fear

Till somebody dragged the rules in here

Said, “You’re thirteen. You shouldn’t stay.”

Like a hammer smashing through my day

Quoting terms like a loaded gun

And suddenly my pulse outrun

Every thought inside my brain

StarMaker came flooding back again

I saw the ban screen in my head

Saw every friendship hanging by a thread

(Pre-Chorus)

So I started saying my goodbyes

With tears burning both my eyes

Trying not to break apart

While holding panic in my heart

(Chorus)

‘Cause I never got to say goodbye

Never got one last late night cry

Never got one last “you’ll be okay”

They disappeared and I couldn’t stay

Now every warning feels like doom

Like someone’s locking every room

And I’m stuck outside screaming names

While losing everybody all again

So if I seem scared when rules get read

It’s ‘cause old wounds ain’t really dead

I’m terrified one click decides

Who gets ripped out of my life tonight

(Bridge)

But then…

Something happened I didn’t expect

Instead of leaving, they all protect

Messages flying like battle cries

“Don’t touch them.”

“We got your side.”

And God, I almost broke right there

‘Cause nobody stood for me back there

On StarMaker when the silence came

When I vanished like I was never named

But this time people reached for me

Like maybe I mattered honestly

And through the fear and through the ache

Their voices kept my world from breakin’

Still every notification sound

Makes my stomach hit the ground

Every login feels like chance

Like I’m one step from disappearance again

(Soft Verse)

I know online worlds don’t last forever

People drift apart like changing weather

But I wish somebody understood

How deep those connections really stood

‘Cause lonely kids build homes from text

From midnight jokes and “what comes next?”

And maybe that sounds dumb to some

But to me those people became someone

(Final Chorus – bigger)

So I’m begging time, just let me know

Before you make somebody go

Before the servers close their doors

Before I can’t reach them anymore

Let me tell them what they meant

How they helped me when I was bent

How their stupid memes and late night spam

Made me glad I still am who I am

And if someday this all must end

Don’t rip away my online friends

Just give me one last wave goodbye

One last “we tried” before the night

Because losing people hurts enough

But losing them without a touch

Without a word, without a sign

Still haunts this heart of mineSo now I save every message sent

Every little moment spent

‘Cause somewhere deep inside I know

Nothing gold survives the glow

But maybe love still matters then

Even through screens and usernames

And maybe goodbye means we cared

Enough to fear they won’t be there… 💙