Fear of me

V7.5
Deb Mackay
04:42
2025-10-05
74
ambient, gentle, piano, slow, female
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5
[Intro]
0:00
[Verse]
0:10
Each time I slip beneath the surface
0:10
A sudden tightness grips my chest
0:14
My heart feels bound, my throat holds silence
0:17
Tears wanting freedom, but suppressed
0:20
A glass wall traps my deepest longing
0:22
A scream that never dares escape
0:25
I tremble in the dark of memory
0:28
Caught between the past and present space
0:31
Pre-Chorus
0:35
If I let the cry out,
0:35
Would the floodgates ever close?
0:39
If I break this shell,
0:42
Do I risk all I’ve come to know?
0:45
Chorus
0:50
When fear isn’t of others, but of me
0:50
I’m learning how to let the tears be free
0:55
In the breaking, I might find myself
1:00
In the trembling, reclaim what’s held
1:04
When fear isn’t of others, but of me
1:10
I surrender to the ache, I let it breathe
1:14
Verse 2
1:25
I lean into the pulse beneath the ache
1:25
Ask inward why the protector shields
1:28
That voice whispers soft: “I’m small and frightened”
1:31
The body knows what mind conceals
1:35
Then someone names the inner child inside me
1:38
Her words unlock the dam I couldn’t see
1:42
Tears come unbidden, unrestrained
1:46
I welcome what’s been waiting to be free
1:51
Pre-Chorus
1:55
(variation)
1:55
Can I stay here in the raw?
1:57
Can I honor what’s inside?
2:00
If I stop resisting,
2:03
Will this fear become my guide?
2:05
Chorus
2:12
When fear isn’t of others, but of me
2:12
I’m learning how to let the tears be free
2:19
In the breaking, I might find myself
2:24
In the trembling, reclaim what’s held
2:28
When fear isn’t of others, but of me
2:34
I surrender to the ache, I let it breathe
2:38
Bridge
2:43
So I’ll sit with what I can’t fix
2:43
Breathe into the weight I can’t resist
2:48
Let awareness rise, not force
2:53
Let healing flow — a steady course
2:56
What I fear might be what I need
2:59
The darkness to reveal the seed
3:02
If I stay present, soft and kind
3:10
Maybe there’s a doorway I will find
3:15
Chorus
3:22
(final / variation)
3:22
When fear isn’t of others, but of me
3:24
I’m learning how to let the tears be free
3:31
In the breaking, I’m discovering
3:37
The love I feared was buried deep
3:43
When fear isn’t of others, but of me
3:46
I surrender to the ache, I let it breathe(soft / echoing)
3:51
Let the tears be free…
3:57
Let the tears be free…
4:02
In the space between fear and love…
4:09
I let the tears be free
4:15