[verse]

i just wanna cry

no idea why?

a release, an escape

from reality and the day

or the night

too hard to fight

the shed of the tear

kept so near

it's far from me ya know

not a place I wanna go

PTSD is a part of me

and I am who I wanna be

calloued soul yet feeling sentimentality

I'm not who I wanna be

it's a dichotomy

love what I do yet want to run

not to an escape of the sun

set me free

this trapped soul inside of me but wait

I like to be

in the now

to show the crowd what it's like

to reflect and mirror life's strife

you don't like to talk about the bad

talk about positive - that's all she said

so what

this song is a hybrid of a shared needing of updates

in technology

the join blend of you and me

XTC did god create me

please help

don't you dare

perhaps carried yet never been there

stay away and let me free

or watch and just let be

there's no finality

stop the whines

it's about time

get over PTSD

it was yet is not how I want to live and thrive

PTSD leads to demise of the self

of the soul, it gets boring and old